Sunday Ramblings

    Guilt fills my heart because I haven't written here in so long. In my defense, I did move and start life over, so I've been a little busy. So be kind, blogger. You're judgement is just too much. And let's be honest, we've had an on/off relationship since 2006, so you should be used to it by now.

Moving on...

    So life is all new (ish). I've moved back to my hometown. New apartment. New job. New co-workers. New routine. New people all around. And for the post part, I'm enjoying every moment. My heart is filled with gratitude to the Lord and the way He weaves lives together. It's fun. And hard. The newness as it turns to oldness. It's been particularly difficult as my sin shows up in places that there hasn't been room for it before. The ugliness of my overwhelming brokenness flares in my insecurities and inability to trust Jesus. It bears its teeth in how I seek my own way rather than seeking the culture of the Kingdom and, ultimately the nature of Jesus. It is ever present in my irritability and fearful heart-the things that keep me from serving others wholeheartedly.

    The only good news about these things (and it is GOOD), is that seeing my sin pushes me to the One who saves. The One who loves when I am terribly unlovely. The One who is enough when I simply am not.

    And as I continue to learn to live in grace and His enoughness, I am thankful to be doing that in community. With people who are also learning to live this way and have been made gracious enough to remind me and the others around them to look to Jesus. To repent and believe the Gospel in the most practical of ways and the most profound ways.

    To end, here's a list of things that are great about life now and things that I miss from life of old, because we all know about my love affair with lists.

1. Weekends. Weekends are so long! Did you know we get a vacation every week? I didn't. And I'm enjoying it. Sometimes on Saturdays I forget and get sad, then am really excited because I have Sundays to rest and play with friends. Really, its just nice to be on schedule with the most of the rest of the world (except I need to get my oil changed and my hair cut which is proving difficult to schedule).

2. Students. I miss them and their stories and seeing how the Lord is at work in them.

3. Creating. The amount of design and communication work I do is SO fun.

4. Coffee shops. There is no working in coffee shops in my life right now and that's just sad.

5. People. I get to see my family pretty much whenever I want. I have friends and a bible study. That's a dream. Even when I get irritated with our group messaging, I'm immediately thankful that I have something to be annoyed with. Coworkers are great, the South is great.

That's enough. For funnsies-here's a picture of my grandmother, my mom and me. Mom was so excited about this cotton candy. And it turned her mouth blue which was hilarious.